Seriously…?

This is what I did while I was waiting on new parts.

I started baking bread, using a simple recipe. The results have been very pleasing so far.

The Banana Bread was yummy, if still a smidge doughy. The Blueberry Bread I made yesterday is AMAZING, the kiddo is going nuts over it.

After 14 Days of Wii Fit (really 3 weeks counting the holidays and us being out of town) I have lost about 7 pounds. I rather like that, there are results coming out of it, and I finally nailed down my routine. Hopefully it will help me in the long run.

I also have been WAY watching what I eat, if I feel like snacking, I drink more water, and I switched to diet soda for my ONE glass of caffeine a day. I already feel less hungry all the time.

CttC and OHC have both returned officially with new strips. And I am working towards finishing the strips early. Friday’s strip is half drawn, and I really like it so far. Wensday is going to have a new Epic CttC Character on OHC, and its my fave so far.

Wensday I have my appointment with the specialist about Odin, yes, I am pretty nervous about this. He could decide that I need to have eye surgery, which will probably put me out of comission for a few weeks… And I worry about going nuts from boredom.

I’ll try to keep everyone updated on what the doc says, and everything else. Its just… wow sometimes I am glad for zoloft and sleeping pills.

But Jelly Bean has asked me to try my hand at comic work again.

I’m more than a little apprehensive about this, my recent work isnt up to par with what I was doing, and while most people dont notice the small imperfections. I do.

I notice my shakey ink-work, and less then perfect coloring skills.

Its all of those little things, and my own horribly shaken confidence that makes me a bit scared to work on the comic again.

What if it isnt as good, or the eye strain is too much.

My biggest worry is that I will become too frustrated with my sight to continue. And I know its a stupid worry, but its what I am dealing with. Its my sight, and if its ruined, what do I have left that is me?

I was an artist long before I was a mom, and I share being a parent with several people. Art was the only thing in my life that was solely mine, I didnt HAVE to share my work with anyone. It was mine.

Now, I dont know if I can keep doing it.

I am kinda stuck in this horrible cycle of self-doubt, and despite medication, it still affects me day-to-day.

I can officially say that all of our shopping for the holidays is complete! I have three gifts left to wrap, and I will be done.

YAY!

This has been a strangely less stressful holiday season, despite the weird health problems I’ve had to deal with. Thankfully we’ve been a smidge more finanically stable this year too, and I was able to do some nice things for people.

The kiddo doesnt know yet that we are spending Yule at his Anta’s (Jelly Bean’s Mom) with his cousins, but he does know that at some point we’ll be seeing them, and that excites him.

To my SIL, who I am sure reads this, the JMonster DID help pick out each gift we got the soccer team, and he made cards for them. The gifts are largely from him.

This is my first winter holiday without Bennie, which is kinda, well, very depressing, since it was her favorite holiday. And the first year I dont cook something for the holidays, what a strange feeling…

Okay, in Art News, I started a series of Pin ups of tasteful but mature Pixies being serviced by… well plants…

They ARE naked, but important bits are covered. So theres my Mature Warning.

This one is funny if you know what a Sybian is.

Mushroom= Sybian.

I really like this one, especially if you know what Aerial Silk is.

If you want a print of the Pixies, I should have them up on my Etsy soon, if not, just drop me a comment and we’ll go from there.

I finally pencil to paper today and started drawing again.

I’m not, as pleased with the results as I could be, but its something.

So my portfolio has been updated with the stuff I drew today, plus some stuff I had forgotten to upload previously.

But here is a teaser, the only piece I am remotely happy with.

This is probably the first piece I’ve done not using human flesh tones. I rather like it, its a departure from what I am use to.