Seriously, dont put off your eye appointments, or getting it looked at if you have small things wrong.

I learned this, the hard way, sadly.

Remember a month ago when I was whiny about my left eye hurting and being all gross?

Yeah, that was my retina detaching…

No, I didnt do anything to make it detach.

So, at the eye Dr’s today we learned that 30% of the vision in my left eye is ruined, and could probably worsen. But oh, wait! Lets have you see a SPECIALIST/SURGEON and see what he says.

Over to the hospital I go, and wait… and wait… For over 3 hours, granted, I knew it would be a wait. He WAS in surgery at the time.

He looks me over, and fairly quickly said my eye problems are probably something called Coats’ Disease.

In layman’s terms, it means I could possibly lose all vision in my left eye, or nothing could happen. Its a slow moving disease, luckily. But since I have already had retina detachment, treatments arent really an option….

Yay…

I wont know more until Janurary, since he wants to do a full battery of tests, but unless I present signs of it worsening, there really isnt a whole bunch he can do at this time.

Yeah, one of the shittiest days of my life.

Oh, its all Bennie’s (My grandma) birthday (87) and I saw a Gone with the Wind Collector’s Edition DVD set, and really wanted to get it for her… Then I remembered, I dont HAVE my Bennie anymore…

And they dialated my left eye twice, that was… ugh. *stab*

Ima go and cry into my drink now…

~Edit~

Apparently I need to explain what treatment, or rather lack of treatment I shall be receiving.

Because my retina has already detached, the usual treatments of laser or freezing the abnormal blood vessels to PREVENT retinal detachment are of no use to me.

The damage is done, there is no reattaching my retina, and I will have to live with the damage and adjust to it.

There is a chance that the condition could worsen, which means possibliy losing the sight in my left eye, but now that we KNOW something is wrong, we know what to look for, and hopefully it can be prevented.

That could be laser surgery, or freezing treatments on the abnormal blood vessels in my eye, it could mean complete removal of my eye (depending on where the abnormal vessels are)

Now, all of that being said, its a very SLOW PROGRESSING problem, I may live out my life with my eye being virtually ok, or it could decide in 10 years to just fail all together. Its a waiting game mostly.

Yes, the idea of my eye being damaged permantly has thrown me into a nice pit of depression for the time being, and its going to make my usual holiday depression worse. But I will deal with it. If that means I am a bit more cynical and sarcastic for a few weeks, so be it.

Its hard finding out you probably have a disease that could mean the loss of an eye, but that you cant really do anything about it.